She’s looking for that perfect moment
where life starts to make sense
a moment that nobody would
just let pass them by.

She’s at the tender age of 21
life in the most beautiful
sense of the word.
But then why is everything so scary?

She’s supposed to be smart but
she’s so confused.
No way to tell what’s up or down.
Is she moving forward and letting go?

She’s full of the experiences of life
but some she’d gladly trade
some days were hard and full of pain.
Trying to be stoic, but that big heart gets in the way

She’s loved very few but trusted too many
who can she really trust with her heart?
She cares too much about consequences and what ifs
to decide what would truly make her happy.

She keeps searching for that moment
where her heart finds a place to belong
a warm happy place that feels safe
open arms to ground her in place.

She tries to hold on to her sense of innocence
but with every passing day its slipping away
the prayers come few and far between
her anger builds, is it misplaced?

How does she know who to love and who to hate?
People have added so many wonderful
things to her life she doesn’t deserve
but even that brings on more heartache.

She’s anxious to start a life she’ll never have
her perception of reality is something she doesn’t trust
so many have lied and deceived
she’s a coward to let them stay.

She’s waiting for that helping hand
her miracle she’s prayed for, for so long
a moment where the oceans are calm
so that she may think clearly.

She can’t make decisions
fear cripples her in every way
can’t move forward
what if it’s all a mistake?

I’m just waiting for my moment…